So, this is how it all started…
I woke up one morning, and my head just felt heavy, filled with air I could barely lift it off the the pillow. I was congested and my throat hurt; I was suppose to go out of town for work that afternoon; had no idea how I was going to manage that. However, I did manage to get myself together to at least drive to the urgent care across the street from me TLC Urgent Care; where I was seen by Dr.Kim. As Dr.Kim checked me out, he seemed to be pushing a lot on my neck and under my chin; I figured it was because I mentioned having a sore throat. He prescribed some antibiotics for me to feel better, but he also wrote a prescription for me to get an ultrasound of my thyroid. He told me to wait a week or so for the cold to go away before going to get it, but that my thyroid seemed swollen and that he wanted to look into it. I left thinking, what the heck is a Thyroid…
A week later I went to Baycare Imaging to have my ultrasound done. It’s kind of awkward the way you have to bend your neck back, especially considering you can’t see anything on the actual ultrasound screen. So being the curious human being that I am, I asked the technician what she was seeing, but of course she said that the radiologist would read my ultrasound and send my doctor the results. Of course, I thought in the back of my head, I’m sure you’ve done enough of these to have some idea; but I get it, legal issues.
A few days later I was back at TLC Urgent Care to get my results, this time seeing Megan the PA. She seemed nervous when she walked in, but then again who wouldn’t be. She started by explaining to me that the ultrasound of my thyroid showed a lymph node, which was the swelling that Dr.Kim was feeling when he examined me. That a lymph node could be benign, meaning noncancerous or that it could be malignant. She explained that my next step would be to get a biopsy of the lymph node to find out. She asked if I had a primary to follow up with, which of course I didn’t, I had moved to Tampa just under a year at the time, and truly hadn’t taken the time to look for a new one. She assured me that they were there if I needed anything.
I can’t explain how I felt when I left, overwhelmed I guess, I mean I was just told that I could possibly have cancer. Is there a way to feel? I really can’t tell you. What I can tell you is that I drove to Publix, the nearby grocery store and purchased a 6-pack of Cream Cheese Frosting cupcakes. I got home and stuffed my face with cupcakes as the tears ran down my face, I was preparing myself for the worst. After about an hour or so, I decided I needed to get myself together to call my mom. I wasn’t about to call my two time cancer survivor mom in tears because I might have cancer; I needed to be stronger than that. You see there was one phrase my mom lives by, the phrase that pushed her through… “Let your faith be stronger than your fears” and because of that I knew I’d be okay.
- Strength- My Mother
- Confidence- My Mother
- Perseverance- My Mother